Doesn't Really Matter

There were forty-five seconds to figure out 
That there were some things I couldn't be 
But she said, boy, where you been and those things you've done 
She said it doesn't really matter to me 
No, it doesn't really matter to me 

We were blazing 
Lit up the sky like the four horsemen 
Of the kindest apocalypse 
Oh, that you've ever seen 
When she kissed me I came alive 
It felt like beaches in summertime 
Her waves were crashing on the shoreline of my mind 
I was pulled out to sea 

There were forty-five seconds to figure out 
That there were some things I couldn't be 
But she said, boy, where you been and those things you've done 
She said it doesn't really matter to me 
No, it doesn't really matter to me 

I was helpless 
Overcome by all the words she said to me 
And when she holds me in her arms 
Oh girl, you're my person now 
I'd been beaten down, I thought I 
Was out of the game for good 
But you take me as I am, oh, and I take you just the same 

There were forty-five seconds to figure out 
That there were some things I couldn't be 
But she said, boy, where you been and those things you've done 
She said it doesn't really matter to me 
No, it doesn't really matter to me 

Now I still wonder sometimes what if we hadn't met 
I think not finding you would be my biggest regret 
But I'll chase after you until my dying breath 
Cause baby we're not over yet 

There were forty-five seconds to figure out 
That there were some things I couldn't be 
But she said, boy, where you been and those things you've done 
She said it doesn't really matter to me 
No, it doesn't really matter to me

All I Need

I have known many days 
Sitting alone inside my own head 
Wondering why everyone else seems 
To know who they area and what they're doing tomorrow 
When you all came along, you 
Gave new life to what I had been dreaming 
Now I feel that we could rise up 
On the wings of the songs that we're singing 

All I need is for you to bring that beat back 
I could build mountains out of what, out of what you bring me 
All I need is for you to move that melody 
We'll keep telling these stories and fight on 
We'll play our way home 

Tell me a good story my friend 
Filled with wonder and darkness and longing 
To me the best stories are now 
the ones that we write, that we write in the telling 
We could get lost yet, I know this, I know this 
Some dreams are born to be broken but 
I know that together we can make 
Even someone's broken things become someone else's hallelujah 

All I need is for you to bring that beat back 
I could build mountains out of what, out of what you bring me 
All I need is for you to move that melody 
We'll keep telling these stories and fight on 
We'll play our way home

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#42

What would you think about 
Maybe we try this out 
I'd like to stick around 
I know enough by now 
To know that in you I've found 
Something worth singing out loud 

I cannot tell you just how far down 
This road together you and I might go 
But I promise this will only grow 
Like a tall tree standing beside the riverbank 
Beautiful and strong, just like you my friend 

I don't know where I've been 
But I know where I want to go 
I know that I want you 
And if you believe me 
Let's go together 
I know that I want you 

Think about all the time we spent 
Apart from each other not knowing 
That it was each other we wanted 
Maybe we could build this together 
Take what we've known and make it better 
Would you be up for this journey? 

I cannot tell you just how far down 
This road together you and I might go 
But I promise this will only grow 
Like a tall tree standing beside the riverbank 
Beautiful and strong, just like you my friend 

I don't know where I've been 
But I know where I want to go 
I know that I want you 
And if you believe me 
Let's go together 
I know that I want you 

I know that I want you.... (etc.)

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You and I

I don't know where to go 
But I think that you know 
I've been trying to figure you out 
And I wonder how long 
All this can go on 
'fore I run out of reasons not to doubt 

I said please 
Tell me just what it means 
That there is something else left here 
Just between you and I 
Please, tell me just what it means 
That there is nothing else left here 
Oh, between you and I 

I don't need to think twice 
I don't think you were nice 
I think you told me what I needed to hear 
But I wonder how long 
All this can go on 
I just need you to sing it out loud and clear 

Please 
Tell me just what it means 
That there is something else left here 
Just between you and I 
Please, tell me just what it means 
That there is nothing else left here 
Oh, between you and I

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What You Came For

When what you wanted is not what you need 
When all the things that could carry you there 
Leave you choking, down on your knees 
When what you came for is not why you stay 
When the walls close in and you're not sure 
If you should stick around or break away 

Tell me friend, what are you running from 
You were so sure of yourself--what have you become 

When all you stand for is an empty shell 
When all the things you thought you believed 
Were put inside your head by someone else 
When absolution is a dirty word 
Your media is no longer social, your screams all go unheard 

Tell me friend, what are you running from 
You were so full of yourself, but what have you become 

[The lies you told yourself 
Are as thick as New Orleans in June 
The pretension, the self-control, the need 
To be the center of every room 
What will it take to chip away 
At your self-sufficient veneer 
No matter how far you think you are 
Grace is always near] 

Tell me friend, what are you running from 
You were so high on yourself, but now you're under the gun 
Tell me again what it was you came for

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Day Drinking With F. Scott Fitzgerald

Hey, my brother in grey, 
Just lift up your face and let it come in 
Look to the sky, reach out and taste 
What's coming your way 
Hey, my sister in pain, 
Open up your ears and hear what they say 
I found this for you, now you walk the line 
It's new every day 

I will hold you like your mother 
I will rob you like a thief 
I will scold you like a father 
When you try to find relief 
I will show you what it means, what it means 

Hey, don't bother to stay 
There isn't any here, it's all on the way 
It's over the hill, or under the bend 
You know what they say 
But if I told you my real name 
Would you break the mirror, would you play the game 
Go on, take your time, I'll be here all day 
It's always the same 

I will kiss you like your mother 
I will desert you in your grief 
You will mistake me for another 
But I will offer no relief 
Tell me what it means, what it means 

Open the door and come in 
Sit here by the fire 
Tell me how long have you been away 
And where have you been 
Open the door, it's a fine fine morning for desire 
A brand new day for someone like you 
With so much to give 

I will hold you like your mother 
I will make you believe 
That you want all the things I give you 
Pay no attention to the bleeding 
To the bleed

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If You Would Listen

When I found you, you were quiet 
It was kind of hard to believe 
But you told me that I should 
Sit down right beside you 
And tell you about all the things that I had seen 

If you've ever tried 
To hope it all turns out alright 
But lost the vision 
It's not always bright 
But hope shines in the darkest night 
If you would listen 

Sometimes I sit and wonder 
If all the world's a stage 
What is this drama we have 
Been tasked with performing 
And what's the part that I'm supposed to play 

If you've ever tried 
To hope it all turns out alright 
But lost the vision 
It's not always bright 
But hope shines in the darkest night 
If you would listen

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Heather Please

They say the devil's in the details, now I know what they mean 
When you took my hand that night 
I did not know what to believe 
I've had the same thing so many times 
Can't get my heart off my sleeve 
But if you tell me that you'll stay awhile 
I don't think I'll ever leave 

Come on, come on, come on Heather please 

Seasons change, people come and go 
That's just the way that it is 
But the more I see the more afraid I am 
Of making promises 
I am no prophet, nor prophet's son 
I just try to tell it like it is 
But you make me want to be a better man 
And I could get used to this 

Come on, come on, come on Heather please 
Come on, come on, come on Heather please 
I think that you're the one for me 
Come on, come one, come on Heather please 

I think that you're the one for me 
Give me your trust and you will see 
I'll give you back the best of me 
Cause I think that you're the one for me 

Come on, come on, come on Heather please

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Together

I felt like I'd already met you 
But I did not know your name 
You were waiting in the wings before taking the stage 
There is nothing I would not have done for you 
If you could have stayed 

A broken heart falls down like thunder and rain 
Even when you wanted to go out and feel 
The sun on your face again 
I do not think there is even a language for 
The things that we feel now 

I cannot keep my eyes dry 
When I walk down the stairs 
All this was your kingdom 
I'd give it all up, I swear 
I would have let you take 
The very breath from my lungs 
If it meant that we could be 
Together

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The World I Found

I want to be remembered 
For the grace that I gave 
In a time when nobody knew 
How to love their neighbor 
I want to be forgotten 
It is not about my name 
But about all that may remain 
After all the labor 

The wild wolves are coming 
To tear apart all that you hold dear 
But if you hold on my dear 
Better days are coming 
See I've had my back broken, my heart torn open 
My words turned back against me 
Sleepless nights where I knew 
That I would not see the end 

I fell in love with the world I found 
When I opened up my eyes 
Truth be told I was not any worse for wear 
And I don't know how I still find hope 
But it's a gift that I'll gladly take 
It reminds me that there's still love left 
For you and I

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I Told You

If we could see through the window 
Read what's been written on that page 
If we could take what we've been given 
Would that change how we misbehave 
If we'd borrowed what we've stolen 
Could we pay it back in full 
See I'm not getting any younger 
And I'm starting to feel that pull 

I'm tired of trading my dreams 
For real life 

Now just because I am a dreamer 
That doesn't mean I am asleep 
And if I give up on fighting 
That doesn't make me weak 
If you could be forgiven 
For all the things that came before 
If you truly knew, for just one minute, that you were loved 
Would you settle that score 

I'm tired of trading my dreams 
For real life 

I told you 
I found it out 
But I still believe 
I told you 
I have my doubts 
But I still believe 

Someone lied to you and told you 
That you have all the time in the world 
No, we're all gonna go 
Belief is not the same thing as being certain 
See, I wonder, but that doesn't mean 
That I don't know 

I told you 
I found it out 
But I still believe 
I told you 
I have my doubts 
But I still believe

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After the War

Tell me how far I've come 
Tell me again how I have learned the things that I've learned 
Walk beside me, hear the words I say 
And what I don't say, and what I might say in my sleep 
Pick me up as I try to pick myself up 
I remember who I am most of the time 
I find that I live inside all of those words I couldn't say 
And that I'll never get to say to them 
No, I'll never get to say 

Can't get around it 
The things that came before 
I used to believe it 
I used to be so sure 
I just want to find it 
Life after the war 
Please won't you tell me 
What all this pain was for 

The things that I must fight against now 
Are not the same things I once trained for 
Astride the barrel of a gun and 
I'm not sure if it's pointing at me or pointing the other way 
but do you remember when I said 

Can't get around it 
The things that came before 
I used to believe it 
I used to be so sure 
I just want to find it 
Life after the war 
Please won't you tell me 
What all this pain was for 

And I wonder sometimes 
What is it that makes you so sure 
I would give it all away 
To find life after the war

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Once More

My father once told me, son, whatever you do
Do it on purpose, don't let it get chosen for you
So I took his advice, and I've been writing songs for ten years
But these melodies are like cracked wine glasses
I pour myself in but it never lasts
It just drips out, and you can see right through
But you take it, oh you take it
Once more

When I was a child I knew
That I could fly anywhere I wanted to
So I'd spread my arms, and jump ten thousand miles
But then I grew up and realized
That the evil outside
It doesn't go away when you close your eyes
Cause it's inside, and it's hard to dream anymore
But you take it, oh you take it
Once more

If you're careful, you can hear it
Coming on strong like some holy spirit
You think there might be hope beneath it all
But please, please, don't lie to me
I don't think I can take it if it's all in my head
My heart would never survive
But you take it, oh you take it
Once more
You take it once more

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Best Friend

Come rest your bones, my friend
Sit awhile with me
We'll talk of things gone by and the things we've been
Though evening reaches across the sky
Summer's days are numbered
But though seasons change
You and me will still be the best of friends

Your company is a silent remedy
For the times that I'm not me

And I wanna thank you for that
These are the best of times, the best I've ever had
Though time pulls us apart
I know we'll never be too far away
Cause you're my best friend

Sometimes that sky grows dark
You and I, we become afraid
Like a small child we run and hide
We seek out that strong place
But you don't gotta be afraid of the dark
Let me tell you something I've learned
That even the nighttime's gotta
Wake up and sing eventually

Your company is a silent remedy
For the times that I'm not me

And I wanna thank you for that
These are the best of times, the best I've ever had
Though time pulls us apart
I know we'll never be too far away
Cause you're my best friend

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Wide Awake

Swinging hand over hand through the branches of a willow tree
Your hair flying wild in the summer breeze
The day seemed to open up its arms and let you go
But you'd always come back a little longer now
And I want to love you with a love that's so free
Innocent like a child and wild like the sea
Maybe a little bit crazy, like some midsummer night's dream
Oh, but we're wide awake now

Don't let it go
I could be your surprise don't you know
I'll meet you beneath the willow

I'll sing you a song of love that grows
Oh, I think that this could be good for us now
I'll teach you the words if you don't know
Oh, I know this is good and I'm not coming down

Yeah, I'm not coming down

Some days it feels like all my dreams were made
Staring at a puddle of mud on a rainy day
Everything's lost its color, and everything is grey
But I don't feel that way when I'm with you now
Ever since I was a little boy I've dreamed
Of two great loves I'd spend my life pursuing
The love that saved me (the love my soul redeemed)
Oh, and the love of the one that I would call my queen

Don't let it go
Hands held tight into the unknown
And it's only with you that I'll go

I'll sing you a song of love that grows
Oh, I think that this could be good for us now
I'll teach you the words if you don't know
Oh, I know this is good and I'm not coming down

Yeah, I'm not coming down

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Miss the Rain

Oh, and could I have done better?
Well I don't know
Standing where I am on the other side 
Of everything that went wrong
But hindsight is never as good as 20/20
I told you so
Oh, and should I have done better?
I guess she would say so
Hands on her hips, she's say,
Say look at the differences but
I could never tell the difference in my mind
So I can't answer those

But you became to me 
What the rain is to summertime
And oh, now you're gone, and I'm just dry
I miss the rain

Oh, and should I have done better?
Well I guess you could say so
Standing where I am on the other side
Of the corner beyond which 
You turn around and realize
That you don't recognize yourself
So I don't know
But I suppose

That you became to me
What the rain is to summertime
And oh, now you're gone, and I'm just dry
I miss the rain

Could I have done this better?
Should I look out for more next time?
I don't know, but I sure wanna try

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Sparrow

Your daughter took the sky
She grew out wings to fly
She was a stranger passing through
But what would you have done?
These fickle words, every one
They tell it simple, tell it true

A thing is grown, and then it goes
Time marches on, this truth that everyone knows

But the wind that lifts her wings
Will also turn and bring 'em home
And the darkness that you fear
Is never dark as it could go
And she may have her secrets
But she will always have your hand to hold
Your wind-blown sparrow

You felt it pushing through
These words they ran on down from you
What will you do, where will you go?
But only the wind replied
Coursing upwards, walking through the sky
It brings more than you know

A thing is grown, and then it goes
Time marches on, this truth that everyone knows

But the wind that lifts her wings
Will also turn and bring 'em home
And the darkness that you fear
Is never dark as it could go
And she may have her secrets
But she will always have your hand to hold
Your wind-blown sparrow

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Good For Each Other

Oh, you and I have 
Got nothing to gain from
All of this restraint
That we're showing towards
One another
I can't believe
That it's still so hard to see
That there's you and there is me
And we're good for each other

I want to feel like the sun on your face
I want to sweep you away

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Don't Believe (What I Say)

There are some things that I told her
That I didn't have time to think over
Just put your head on my shoulder
And we'll pretend we got older
Now she'll say I don't know her
Like it's a lie that I've sold her
Baby don't tell me it's over
But she don't believe that I'm sober

Don't believe what I
Don't believe what I say
Don't believe me, I don't know
And I just can't seem to find my way

Now I think she's grown colder
But she says, boy, I got older
But she says please please please just know her
But I don't believe that I could
I don't believe that I could

Don't believe what I
Don't believe what I say
Don't believe me, I don't know
And I just can't seem to find my way

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Six Thousand Summers

Rain on the branches and sun in the evening
The last of the clouds slowly losing its grip on the sky
Six thousand summers and soft linen clothing
The fire there under the trees takes a long time to die
And I say waiting for something
Is better than grabbing at nothing
They may have their reasons
But I have the look in your eyes

(whistle break)

If you fell down a dark place then I would come find you
With water and courage and backpacks and flashlights and love
If your eyes are downcast then I'll help you raise them
We'll sit on the corner and watch as Chicago goes by
Cause the beauty inside you
Is bursting out into the open
We'll take out our maps and
We'll learn how to redraw the lines

And I've been trying to find out what it means to be living
I'm not sure that I'm there yet
But I'll tell you this
Someone's telling this story we live in
And it's a voice I've been trying to recognize, babe,
Cause I just wanna live til I die

But you find out
It's beautiful
Look around you
It's beautiful

And the walls they rang out at
The truth and the lies
And the tears of the children
Whose pain is denied
And my hands are as dirty
As anyone else
But I'm always pulled back here
In spite of myself
And I heard of a city
Whose gates never close
But cities have walls 
And houses and roads
And I set out to find them
But sometimes I'm blind
And sometimes I give up
And sometimes I find
That if rumors are true
Of this story I'm told
Then my heart is broken
And bitter and cold
And all of this suffering
I see with my eyes
Is it any wonder
That so many deny
That this story we're in
Could be beautiful

And I've been trying to find out what it means to be living
I'm not sure that I'm there yet
But I'll tell you this
Someone's telling this story we live in
And it's a voice I've been trying to recognize, babe,
Cause I just wanna live til I die

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Mountains Rise

Here in this hospital waiting room
Do you see the man?
Pacing, he's been
Pacing back and forth for quite a while now
A few rooms down the hall
His true love's crying out
He wants to run to her but
He just lights another cigarette
When they first fell in love,
He dreamed of this day
He didn't realize 
You could be so nervous you could die
But then the nurse comes in
Congratulations my friend
Your family just got a little bit bigger now
Then he runs in
And he just stops and stares
His true love's lying there 
With a baby girl in her arms
And with tears in his eyes
He says, my God,
You're so beautiful

The mountains rise
The sunlight sings
Open your eyes, yeah open your eyes
The baby cries
And though there's wrong
We know it's wrong
Because we know what's right
And if you still deny
Then I say you put on quite the show

Here in this country church dressing room
Do you see the man
Pacing, yeah he's been
Pacing back and forth for quite a while now
A few rooms down the hall
His true love is wearing white
They didn't realize
You could be so nervous you could die but
Now it's time to go
Now they're walking the aisle
He's not sure he's really there and
Time has frozen just for her
But as he holds her hand
He sees his world in her eyes
And she decides to give him everything
It's like a dream
And then they kiss
Like it's the first thing they've ever done
And they lean back and smile
They've never felt so alive
And as they walk out past their family
Her daddy says, my God,
You're so beautiful

The mountains rise
The sunlight sings
Open your eyes, yeah open your eyes
The baby cries
And though there's wrong
We know it's wrong
Because we know what's right
And if you still deny
Then I say you put on quite the show

Here in this hospital room
Do you see the man
Eyes heavy, he's been

Lying awake keeping watch for a while now
Right there next to him
His true love is fading fast
He desperately wants her to stay but
All he can do is hold her hand
When they first fell in love
He denied that this day would ever happen
He told her
We can just live forever
But as he watches her
He thinks back and it was good
He kisses her forehead
And whispers
Goodbye baby, I'll miss you
And a few years pass
And it's his time to go
He's not afraid, no,
Cause death is just another doorway
And as he opens his eyes
He says, my God,
I've missed you so much beautiful

The mountains rise
The sunlight sings
Open your eyes, yeah open your eyes
The baby cries
And though there's wrong
We know it's wrong
Because we know what's right
And if you still deny
Then I say you put on quite the show

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